Purpose Driven Life?

In a state of personal crisis I have discovered what really makes me feel so anxiety ridden. It’s a big topic.
What is my purpose?
I was a Mom and wife for most of my adult life. Now I have to have a career. I need to be able to support myself. Just having a job is no longer a reality in today’s world.
The corporate retail sales world has rejected me because I’m not money driven and soulless enough to put money before human life.
I know what I’m good at. I put people at ease. I am friendly, outgoing and down to Earth. I feel better about serving others. Just knowing my kindness made someone else feel good is enough for me. I do want to make a difference in the lives of others. I want to feel needed.
I have always felt as though I wasn’t good enough; never enough money, the wrong side of the tracks, not thin enough, not pretty enough. I married a man told me I was NEVER good enough in looks or in value as a wife. I didn’t clean well enough, cook well enough, I didn’t look like a porn star. I drove myself nuts trying to be perfect. My feelings have been reinforced by the world. It’s what the world has told me for 43 years; that I’m useless. My only value seems to be in what I can earn or whatever accolades I can bring to myself. I want to earn a living but I want to do more.
The Bible says :

Romans 8:28
We know that in all things God works for the
good of those who love Him, who have been
called according to His purpose.

Romans 8:24-25
Who hopes for what he already has? But if we
hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it
patiently.

Philippians 2:3-5
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or in vain conceit
but in humility consider others better than yourselves.
Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but
also to the interests of others. Your attitude should be the same
as Christ Jesus.


To the world, I’m useless. But to God, well, it seems I have a purpose. Just show me the way Lord.