Thursday, October 29, 2009

My life as an outline


My stress level has skyrocketed in the last couple of months. I am in college full time, trying to find a part time job, but I think my brain injury has decided that it's going to give me grief again.
Immediately following my stroke in 1994, I was deemed well enough to skip cognitive therapy and basically left on my own. My doctor, not being the typical mindless follower, decided that was crap. He told me to start playing games like solitaire and role playing repetitive games on the computer. So my therapy was Kings Quest and Wolfenstein 3D. It worked and along the way I discovered something; if I write things down, my brain works the way it did before, organized and with logic.
I couldn't look at the house and just start doing the housework, I had to write it down, step-by-step, and follow my written instructions.
Now that I am stressed with constant poverty, college, perimenopause and teenagers, I have had to return to my former style. I was feeling really bad about having to revert to it, but now my perspective is at least I have a method to overcome it. I am also writing an essay about this for a scholarship- $1250 isn't much but hey, I'll take it!