I am a rock, I am an Island

It is quite apparent to me that all of us in this world are seeking love. I know a lot of us aren't finding it.
I have lived my 43 years so far for the betterment of my children and formerly, my spouse. Now I find that I am very alone in this world. My parents are still around but live 200 miles away. My siblings have their own stuff going on. My birthday was yesterday. My mom called me, and a few folks left messages on MySpace.
This isn't a pity party, but it is an eye opener. What sort of connections have I lacked in making that has brought me to this desolation? It brings to mind the quote of Thoreau and" quiet lives of desperation"
I work, I clean, I cook, and rarely, I spend time with "friends", but are they really friends? What does that mean? How important am I to anyone? Is this my fault? Have I been a shitty friend and therefore I am reaping the consequences?
I am truly at a lack to understand why it is I can't seem to make connections in this world. I am not referring to romantic aspirations necessarily either, although that would be great too.
Feedback please...... anyone??..........................

Uh, theres a little tp on your upper lip.....

I have been feeling increasingly more anxious lately.
Michigan is it's own circle of Hell from Dante. Jobs are very scarce.
Our state is over 7% unemployment.
My parents have had to shut down their business, and my dad had to go on the road truck driving. Bill collectors called my mom and freaked her out.( They're vicious now, FYI, for those that can pay their bills on time.) My doctors office called me today to inform me that I missed my appointment and if I did it again they'd charge me $50.After 3 times, we'd be dropped as patients. I have been going to this doctor for 13 years. If they didn't stop answering phones early on Fridays, I'd have been able to cancel my 7:30 am Saturday appointment.
People in my store rant and rave at us for price increases, as though we can do anything about it. This economy is wretched. It has destroyed families and I have heard so many stories about people losing their jobs and becoming homeless. These aren't poor uneducated folks, but people with degrees.
I guess I an naive enough to wonder why people have to attack one another when we're all suffering. I don't bitch at the store employees because I can't afford steak. I just buy what I can. Hell, I still donate clothes. I offer meals to friends that need them, I give a buck extra to the guy that sell papers on the corner, while hauling his oxygen tank in a kids wagon. Being disabled hasn't stopped him from trying.He doesn't bitch either.
When did people become such assholes anyway?

Once a great place, now a prison.

Just when Detroit looked stupid, the City Council had to join in just to be certain that it looks childish as hell.
They refused to listen to his budget for the fiscal year. It may be against the law to do so. Conyers called the council president "Shrek" in a meeting last week.She also intimated that he was a bully. It's not the first time she's been an ass.
What in the hell is this? Middle School?
Just so your not mistaken, The City Council seems every bit as inept and self serving as the mayor himself. Conyers antagonistic "street" lingo and thug attitude might be great on the West Side but City Council? Come on....
Eh, maybe Detroit is getting exactly what they deserve. It's just so sad to see a once great City fall to a mess because all those in charge care about their own agendas rather than what is good for the city.
Click on the Free Press link on my page and check it out. So sad.......