Sunday, July 18, 2010

Those who forget history are doomed to repeat it


It finally happened- I GOT A JOB!!!!
It's in a setting I consider to be God's Work- assisted living. I will be able to utilize some of my medical assistant skills within the administrative realm and I'll be able to help and befriend many senior citizens, which are my favorite kind of people.
I am thankful to God that my cousin thought of me for the position she needed to fill, since she's the manager. Sadly, most of the people I know that have found jobs, have found them because they know someone. I was going to pursue a career in health care. With all of my training in the medical field, encompassing skills like phlebotomy, injections and patient care, I would only make $8-9 and hour. That will keep me impoverished. I am rethinking what I want complete my education in. So if we pay health care workers minimum wage, why are we so surprised when Grandpa's nurses aide doesn't show up and doesn't seem to care about him. This is just like child care. We place our precious children often with uneducated people making minimum wage and feign horror when our babies are warehoused and ignored.
I have been doing a lot of reading. My studies of history have led me to the conclusion that this country was never based on the level playing ground notion that anyone can be anything. There has always been a class distinction in this country. If you don't believe me, first of all, READ A BOOK, and then go and hang out with the Country Club set. They'll let you know right away where you fall in class levels. They're not necessarily smarter, more refined or more talented, but they feel they ARE ABOVE YOU, simply by virtue of their connections and power. It has always been that way in this country. It's one of the nastier things we have brought over from The Old Country. Bottom line- some jobs and people are deemed lesser. We have degraded ourselves back to serfdom and Lord of the estate.Amusingly,Europe has evolved while America has stagnated in regard to the care of it's people. It makes me really sad and determined to be one person to make a difference in the lives of people that society throws away. We've always had people that are of lower intelligence and only able to do manual labor. But just like the 18th century, their standard of living is very bad. There were wonderful people that rose from the filth and muck of poverty and made themselves into successful people, but not without opposition from their "betters". Unions were brought about because too many people were being maimed and killed in factories and sweatshops where employees earned only enough to keep them from starving to death, while the businessmen were living in splendor. Big business viewed employees as disposable fodder. THAT HASN'T CHANGED! VERY FEW businesses care about anything but their bottom line. Union busting isn't driven by anything but greed. Businessmen lament their having to pay taxes and costs of their employees insurance, but mostly they're pissed because they can't live in the luxury they feel is due to them. No one is happy living a good life; they want the newest, the best, world travel, a Hummer. They've earned it by God! There was a similar business model we employed in this country called SLAVERY; living off the sweat and hard work of another.
I am not afraid of hard work or seeking an education to better my lot in life, but I am discouraged by the current state of affairs that is corporate America and the government is run in the same business model. This is why we have such a vast division of the classes in this country again. It was the way our country started and it will lead to our demise it we don't stop it. Ever heard of Rome? Keep playing your fiddle big business.Rome is burning.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Proud or ashamed?


Poverty is my daily opponent and obstacle. I wake up with the fear of whether my car will break down, or if I will finally succumb to my present heath issues. I fear going to the doctor because that will cause more debt with no means to pay it. Not unlike the deer in the headlights, poverty is paralyzing and feels like a raw empty space that nothing will ever fill or heal. I can usually overcome it by prayer, Xanax, deep breathing or a combination of all 3, but there are days, due to other outside factors such as illness, shut off notices, cuts in unemployment benefits or an inability to purchase required prescriptions, that poverty is going to win. I crawl off to my bed, play computer games, read books, or watch movies. I only have 2 xanax left and I don’t have $60 for more. I could soon face eviction as well.
My darkest thoughts question why I am so easily disposed of? Am I so inconsequential as to be allowed to die homeless in the streets? Are my kids unworthy because their mother is unable to find work? I am not too proud. My chosen career is to take care of the elderly and infirmed. I am not too good for anything. I have sought employment as a maid, nanny, dog walker, and fast food. I wonder why I have been chosen to be deemed “useless” by society. I don’t drink, smoke and I’m celibate. The only place I frequent is church. I am kind to others and always offer to help anyone else in need. But, I cannot find work. And this has made me a leper, a parasite, welfare scum. And I don’t even know if I’ll get welfare. I wonder what the next step down the caste system is from that?

This 4th of July has me wondering what kind of country I live in. A country that doesn’t care for it’s own people but ass kisses every corporation around; The same companies that would rather ship all of the work to Mexico rather than pay a decent wage to working folks. God Bless America, but I’m afraid we’re reaping what we’ve sown. And I hope all of you bastards in Washington enjoy your f’ing holiday.

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Encourage One Another


Being a friendly person, I engage in conversations with my not only friends but my neighbors. One topic is education and jobs. My neighbor is an EMT and in nursing school. She is a single mother of 3 and her sister moved in recently with her twin girls. I have often said hi and chatted with them. Yesterday they asked me how college was going and I told them that although I had a 3.6 GPA, I would not be eligible for Baker's program because I have to have 4.0. I also shared my despair at the government not passing the latest unemployment bill, so I will be losing my last 10 weeks of benefits. I have shared my situation with "friends" that I have known for years. My mother has spoken to her friends and church about the situation and they have lifted me in prayer.
Many people of my own personal circle have been supportive, but quite a few of them also have insinuated that I am somehow negative,and that I don't really want to work because I am lazy or not trying. Some of my Mom's friends went a step further and just said that I was not willing to take what I could get. The neighbors? They encouraged me and told me they'd pray for me. That God cared about me and as long as I trusted in Him and worked hard to do my part, He would bless me with a career.
They understand that I am not complaining, but I am just reaching out in my own frustration. By the way- the neighbor's sister is a Katrina survivor. She had a really good job as a nurse in New Orleans. She lost her job, her home and has been seeking work in Michigan because she has family here. She is leaving soon though. She can't go back to New Orleans. The rent in her area went from $1000 a a month to $4000 a month. She knows better than anyone what can happen to people that love God. They CAN lose everything, but they keep on trying. And they look to one another for encouragement. I can only think that some people never learned that in Sunday school.


Hebrews 10:23-25 ESV
Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who promised is faithful. And let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works, not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day drawing near.


1 Thessalonians 5:11 ESV
Therefore encourage one another and build one another up, just as you are doing.