Whatever Tomorrow Brings

Drive by Incubus


Sometimes I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I cant help but ask myself how much I'll let the fear take the wheel and steer
It's driven me before, it seems to have a vague
Haunting mass appeal
Lately I'm beginning to find that I should be the one behind the wheel
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there, I'll be there
So if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive
Will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive, oh oh
It's driven me before, it seems to be the way
That everyone else get around
Lately, I'm beginning to find that when I drive myself, my light is found
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there, I'll be there
Would you choose water over wine
Hold the wheel and drive
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there
With open arms and open eyes yeah
Whatever tomorrow brings, I'll be there, I'll be there

When this song first came out I thought it another one of the "new" bands,and their name evoked more of a heavy metal sort of thing.One day driving to work
( coincidental considering the name of the song), I really listened to the lyrics and thought "this is an incredible song!".
FEAR
I have spent most of my life playing it safe and unwilling to risk anything. It kept me from pursuing my musical career, it kept me from leaving a horrible marriage, and
it has kept me lonely and celibate for 6 years.
Attending the funeral for Cassie yesterday reiterated the theme in my mind of being less afraid. Life is very short. And I'm probably on the downside of the rest of my life. More than half way through, and I've wasted so much time on fear. Afraid to go for what makes me happy, fear of being rejected by men, fear of being too dumb to make it through Medical School. I always aim low, take few risks and feel empty.
It is time for a change.I have been evolving for the last 2 years; much more than ever before. I'm planning on stepping it up a notch. Go big huh?
I will finish college at Macomb, I will continue my education until I have a Bachelors Degree. I will date again and will be fearless enough to allow myself to let someone to see my vulnerability.
Oh,and I will sing again. Yes indeed,I will.