Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Thanks for kicking me while I'm down


I have taken crap for some time now because I've needed to get my income from unemployment and DHS ( food stamps, medicaid) and it makes me wonder what causes this sort of aggression?
One viewpoint is that people are fearful to succumbing to your fate so they pretend it could never happen to them. They tend to also subscribe to the "click your heels" mentality that states " stay positive and positive things will happen for you". Sounds great in a fairy tale world, but doesn't work so well in this one. I do believe in trying to stay positive, but just like being of a certain religious persuasion doesn't save you from disaster, just feeling positive won't either, sorry.
The other, nastier viewpoint is that I am somehow a loser, and un- American to have lost my job and applied for welfare.These are the same folks that like to go to "tea-bag" parties and bitch about all of the lowlifes, like me, that are trying to ruin their ability to make money and not pay taxes.I guess I shouldn't
have lost my job- well, I'd rather have a job but the company I work for likes to get rid of employees that can take advantage of vestment in the company, so they fired me one week before I could. I only made 20K a year with them,full time.
I paid into welfare for the 9 years I worked full time after my divorce. I went to college to get a better job, but when the economy went to hell, so did my job prospects. I go to college full time now and hope to get a full time job and pay taxes again, because I'm not one of the elite that gets away with not paying them.
I try not to get frustrated but I am fed up with blowhard conservatives flinging their shit on me and wide eyed optimists insisting that if I envision success, I'll be successful. Bullshit..... If I work really hard and think positively, I'll be successful. The difference is, when I get my job, I won't be a friggin jerk to those that are still struggling.

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